The Haunting Certainty: When Past Lives Mirror Present Fates

“What if I don’t know this guy yet but I feel like I’ve met him from a past life and I will meet him one day”

As a child, I had 'imaginary friends' who were so real to me that some people in my neighborhood thought they truly existed. All through my life, I watched for them, noting whenever I met a person who reminded me of them. One by one, throughout my life, I met people who were very similar to my imaginary friends, but most of them brought trouble into my life or the relationships were dead-ends.

Unfulfilled Fantasies and Unforeseen Disappointments

One such instance was a dream I had when I was about twelve years old. I was walking down a path over beautiful rolling green hills and it eventually intersected with another path. A perfect hippie guy was walking along there; I grew up in that era, and then we walked on together. I always thought that when I met that guy, he would be my husband. Decades later, when I finally met that person, he turned out to be very hurtful to me.

The Echo of an Unmet Imaginary Brotherhood

There was one imaginary person for whom I never found a face in the flesh: the one I called my brother, but I never gave him a name. Many years later, I saw a picture on a CD cover that reminded me of someone, but I could not place him. Eventually, I heard one of his songs and bought the complete boxed set of his music. However, when I picked up the CD’s, I felt like a presence was with me in the car and later in my home.

When I was reading the booklet and listening to the fourth song, I felt something like an ice cube being put down my back. I realized that in his interests and his temperament, this person was very much like my imaginary brother. Moreover, he had died from an overdose of prescription medication, which could be a suicide at the same age that I had nearly taken my own life in the same manner.

The Obsession and the Letting Go

I obsessed about him for two years and talked to anybody I could find who had known him. It was two years of mourning for someone I never knew, and I was not particularly well-treated by some of his friends. Finally, I broke free of this… whatever it was… and moved on with my life. So, I have been through this thing before over and over of having some kind of dream or fantasy or premonition and in every case, it was very disappointing.

The Supernatural or Just Human Emotions?

I think some of these things are of a supernatural nature, but in my case, they were not from any positive source. Was this just the human heart's way of forging connections and feeling a sense of belonging, even in the absence of a shared reality? Or was it truly an echo from a past life, a misguided intuition from a time before?

Whatever the case may be, the certainty of these experiences left a lasting impression. They reminded me that life is full of unexpected twists and turns, and sometimes, the people we feel a deep, unexplainable connection with are more than just mere strangers.

So, the question remains: do these experiences stem from a past life, a premonition, or simply the heart's relentless pursuit of connection? The answer, I suppose, lies in the symbols and signs that guide us through our complex and often confusing human experiences.